El cántaro roto

El cántaro roto

La lluvia...

Ojos de aqua de sombra,

ojos de agua de pozo,

ojos de aqua de sueńo.

Soles azules, verdes remolinos,

picos de luz que abren astros

como granadas.

Dime, tierra quemada, no hay aqua?

hay sólo sangre, sólo hay polvo,

sólo pisadas de pies desnudos sobre la espina?

La lluvia despierta...

Hay que domir con los ojos abiertos,

hay que soñar con les manos,

soñemos sueños activos de río buscando su cauce,

sueños de sol soñando sus mundos,

hay que soñar en voz alta,

hay que cantar hasta que el canto eche,

raíces, tronco ramas pájaros, astros,

hay que desenterrar la palabra perida,

recordar lo que dicen la sangre y la marea,

le tierra y el cuerpo,

volver al punto de partida...

Octavio Paz, adapted by Eric Whitacre

 

Cloudburst

The broken water-jar

The rain...

Eyes of shadow‐water,

eyes of well water,

eyes of dream‐water.

Blue suns, green whirlwinds,

birdbeaks of light pecking open

pomegranate stars.

But tell me, burnt earth, is there no water?

Only blood, only dust,

only naked footsteps on the thorns?

The rain awakens…

We must sleep with open eyes,

we must dream with our hands,

we must dream the dreams of a river seeking its course,

of the sun dreaming its worlds,

we must dream aloud,

we must sing till the song puts forth roots,

trunk, branches birds, stars,

we must find the lost word,

and remember what the blood,

the tides, the earth, and the body say,

and return to the point of departure...

Translation by Lysander Kemp

Count Your Blessings

Life is so exciting! I have so many great things coming up in my near future that I am too excited to sleep! (Literally.) And every time I think that I am so blessed that life can't get any better, it always does, and more great things appear. This is not a bragging post. I am simply counting my blessings.


For one, I just graduated from Sandhills Community College with an Associate in Arts degree.  Even though I am the fourth child in my family, that technically makes me the first child in my family to graduate with a college degree. (In my oldest brother's defense, he will receive his Bachelor degree at the end of the summer.)


This summer, I have countless job opportunities that really give me an advantage, as far as my resumé and real-life experiences are concerned.  I will be continuing my work as a Marketing Manager, but will be able to take on bigger, more important projects this summer, and potentially begin training for a more permanent position that I can continue with after I transfer colleges.  I have also been given an opportunity to produce the Summer Theatre Camps with the Moore County Arts Council.  I am probably most excited about this opportunity, as it most closely pertains to what I want to do in the future.  Summer for most people means a break.  But for me, it means a chance to get ahead. So I say, "Bring it on."


At the end of the summer, I will transfer either to UNC Chapel Hill, where I will double major in Vocal Performance and Mathematics, OR to the Hayes School of Music at Appalachian State University, where I will either double major in Vocal Performance and Music Education, or major in Music Industry Studies, with a concentration in Music Business (Marketing and Promotion). I know that sounds a little bit complicated...But trust me when I say that I have performed extensive due diligence on each option and know in great detail what each path entails. Whichever road I end up taking will produce an equally desirable outcome, in my book.


As I have mentioned before, I have a strong, loving family that I absolutely adore.  Not just my (two) immediate families, but my extended family as well.  Everyone is so supportive of everything, and I will never be able to express my appreciation for all of their belief in me.  It is deeply humbling.


On another note, I recently resolved all of my debts, the biggest of which concerned my car.  Having spent six months, and almost 300 times that in dollars, paying for my lemon of a Volkswagen, I was finally set free after making my last payment before the beginning of May. Consequently, I have been able to redirect my earnings to my savings account, carefully following a tight budget I outlined for myself just for fun.  Because I was not keeping any of the money I was making, I was not aware of how successful, financially, I have actually been this past year. But now, seeing it build, I realize that I am actually well off, and, ahead of budget already, I know I will be in a good place when I head off to college in the fall. The most baffling part of the whole situation is that everywhere I turn, another opportunity falls into my lap, and I am continually rewarded.  I don't expect these gifts (as most of my financial rewards are carefully planned and justly earned), and they sort of come out of no where, but I greatly appreciate them, beyond the point of fair expression.


As if all of these practicalities were not enough, God has opened a door for me to something so beautiful. I cannot really explain it, but then...it could not be understood by anyone other than myself anyways. He is sending me in a direction that I am undeserving of, but that I am ready and willing to pursue full on. I will work harder than I ever have before to not fail. If you're confused by what I'm talking about, it ties everything together...I just mean that I am confident that my future is bright.  And what I recognize is that it is brighter than I have ever imagined.


Counting your blessings is truly a beautiful practice. I honestly feel like I am the most blessed person in the entire world.

This isn't a question. I just couldn't see the option to post anonymously to your latest blog entry. Go to App. You'll want the connections that the professors can provide if you hope to perform.

Haha, well thank you for the insight!

Ask me anything...I will answer.

Uh Oh...I think I'm in Trouble

Since yesterday was my last day of school, and I've officially completed all of the requirements for an Associate in Arts degree, I've been thinking about my future regarding school...again.

For the past semester, I've been dead-set on being a music major again, no matter what. Music is my passion, especially performing and singing.  And I have been accepted at The Hayes School of Music at Appalachian State University, as a Music Performance major (for Voice), which, evidently, is the most difficult major to be accepted for there.

But I've also been thinking about how little success I've had singing Classical music (other than Choral music), and how much more I enjoy singing the kind of music that 1.) They don't teach you in schools and therefore, 2.) You don't have to go to school for....The only other thing I could get out of going to said School of Music, would be a Music Education degree. Except that I don't exactly plan on being a teacher (just as a fall-back).

Which is what any other degree from any other school would be: a fall-back. So then, it doesn't really matter where I go, or for what, right?  So why would I spend 4-5 years in school to get 1-2 two music degrees, therefore starting my career later...when I could spend 2-3 more years getting a different Bachelor degree or two, and graduate on time, therefore starting my career earlier, and leaving even more time for graduate school...? Is that logical? Or is that just my logic? If I don't major in music, I'd still be able to pursue a career in performance (I think), I just couldn't pursue a career in education...which I don't really want to do anyways. I think I'd rather try to land a career for a record company, or a radio station, or an entertainment company, or a film studio, or....something of the sort. Which I could do with any degree.

I'm so lost...ugh. Why do I continue to create these circles to run myself in?

I need guidance, feedback, advice, opinions!

I think I'm just being retarded.  I know I will forever regret not majoring in music if I don't.  I'm just worried that I might also resent it, for delaying the start of my career, if I do.  Which, in 5-10 years will not even matter. And I've learned that lesson before. I guess I'll go ahead and remind myself not to make that same mistake again.

Thanks for the help!

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